As you might know from my previous post, Elizabeth was diagnosed with Lyme’s Disease on 1/30 and was being treated for it.
She was very sick, not moving much and just not well.
Her kidneys were more damaged than we knew and we lost her.
I try to remind myself she’s in a better place, free of pain and suffering now.
That she knew I loved her more than words could say,
that she changed my life and the life everyone she met with her kind, sweet and gentle way.
But the urge to hold, hug and kiss her sweet face is so strong, it hurts.
I just want to smell her one more time…….
The sadness is overwhelming, there is a big gaping hole in my heart where she used to be and nothing could ever make it right.
Life goes on, but for me, life will never be the same again.
When I think about her being gone, I get angry and upset and
try to find the blame, in myself, in the veterinarian that treated her, in the environment and the damn tick that infected my poor
sweet baby girl with the disease that killed her.
I just wasn’t ready to lose her like this.
I want to thank everyone that has reached out and sent prayers for my little girl, they mean the world to me.
It’s really hard for me to face my friends, Scottie faces on Facebook and Twitter and everyone that knew how special Lizzie was
but I felt like I needed to write about it here.
I don’t know if I will keep this blog but for now, it will remain in her memory.
Elizabeth Josephine 9/17/2004-2/4/2013
In the words of a dear friend, we are karmically linked and we will meet again, my sweet angel girl!