For my Elizabeth….

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As you might know from my previous post, Elizabeth was diagnosed with Lyme’s Disease on 1/30 and was being treated for it.

She was very sick, not moving much and just not well.

Her kidneys were more damaged than we knew and we lost her.

I try to remind myself she’s in a better place, free of pain and suffering now.

That she knew I loved her more than words could say,

that she changed my life and the life everyone she met with her kind, sweet and gentle way.

But the urge to hold, hug and kiss her sweet face is so strong, it hurts.

I just want to smell her one more time…….

The sadness is overwhelming, there is a big gaping hole in my heart where she used to be and nothing could ever make it right.

Life goes on, but for me, life will never be the same again.

When I think about her being gone, I get angry and upset and

try to find the blame, in myself, in the veterinarian that treated her, in the environment and the damn tick that infected my poor

sweet baby girl with the disease that killed her.

I just wasn’t ready to lose her like this.

I want to thank everyone that has reached out and sent prayers for my little girl, they mean the world to me.

It’s really hard for me to face my friends, Scottie faces on Facebook and Twitter and everyone that knew how special Lizzie was

but I felt like I needed to write about it here.

I don’t know if I will keep this blog but for now, it will remain in her memory.

Elizabeth Josephine 9/17/2004-2/4/2013

In the words of a dear friend, we are karmically linked and we will meet again, my sweet angel girl!

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8 thoughts on “For my Elizabeth….

  1. My heart has broken for you a thousand times since I heard of Lizzie’s passing. To know a Scottie is to love a Scottie, and each is so unique in their own way. Just remember that the bond you share with her is one that can never be broken, not even now.
    Sending you our thoughts, prayers and hugs

  2. I can never say how sorry I am about Lizzie’s passing. I know it’s hard to believe it now but some day you will remember her fondly, with laughter and smiles. I pray that until that day that your heart can be soothed by knowing that she loved you and she would not have changed that for the world.

  3. I am so sorry that this happened to sweet Lizzie. So many people have fallen in love with her through your blog & photos. We share your grief.

  4. Ainsley, my hoomans, and I are so sorry. My deepest sympathies to you, your family, and Snoopy. Such a beautiful remembrance.

  5. I cannot convey how deeply sorry I am for your loss. You and Elizabeth are indeed karmically linked. A bond forged from the sweet, loving connection that you shared. You will most definitely meet again, and you’ll recognize each other immediately. You’ll just…know.

  6. Kat i´m so sorry, I really can´t stop crying, I can´t imagine how you feel right now. I get to knew and fell in love with Lizzie thanks to you and she will always be remembered. I know that she´s in a better place now, she´s in your heart and in the heart of all of us; and she will be taking care of you always.

  7. Kat, this brought me to tears..i knew you loved your Lizzie dearly but to hear how her death has affected you brings tears to my eyes. Kat you are one of the happiest most up beat girls i have had the pleasure of knowing & sharing a family with. You bring sunshine when you walk into a room and you always know how to make someone laugh..Lizzie was soo lucky to have you for a mommy &you were blessed to have had such an amazing companion thru out the years. I cant say she is in a better place because with you was the best place for Lizzie! but she is no longer in pain & she is your guardian angel now. I pray that you beautiful, bright demeanor will not change..& i pray for your hearts healing most of all…r.i.p Lizzie!

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