As you might know from my previous post, Elizabeth was diagnosed with Lyme’s Disease on 1/30 and was being treated for it.
She was very sick, not moving much and just not well.
Her kidneys were more damaged than we knew and we lost her.
I try to remind myself she’s in a better place, free of pain and suffering now.
That she knew I loved her more than words could say,
that she changed my life and the life everyone she met with her kind, sweet and gentle way.
But the urge to hold, hug and kiss her sweet face is so strong, it hurts.
I just want to smell her one more time…….
The sadness is overwhelming, there is a big gaping hole in my heart where she used to be and nothing could ever make it right.
Life goes on, but for me, life will never be the same again.
When I think about her being gone, I get angry and upset and
try to find the blame, in myself, in the veterinarian that treated her, in the environment and the damn tick that infected my poor
sweet baby girl with the disease that killed her.
I just wasn’t ready to lose her like this.
I want to thank everyone that has reached out and sent prayers for my little girl, they mean the world to me.
It’s really hard for me to face my friends, Scottie faces on Facebook and Twitter and everyone that knew how special Lizzie was
but I felt like I needed to write about it here.
I don’t know if I will keep this blog but for now, it will remain in her memory.
Elizabeth Josephine 9/17/2004-2/4/2013
In the words of a dear friend, we are karmically linked and we will meet again, my sweet angel girl!
The Liz to my KatandLiz is very ill. My beautiful, loving, kind and gentle 8 year Scottie girl is sick.
She was diagnosed with Lyme’s disease on January 30th.
The vet called me with the results as I was sitting in my office at work.
I had to shut the door and cry it out for a few minutes before I could come to terms of what this meant.
Since the diagnosis, she has been put on medication and a special diet.
She has lost all the energy, playfulness and light from her eyes.
Her voice is silent,
and my heart is broken.
I haven’t been posting much and wanted to let you know why.
I’m hoping she recovers and stays with me a little bit longer because I’m not ready to be without her.
Please send some prayers for my Elizabeth our way and hope for the best,
” A dog will teach you unconditional love. If you can have that in your life, things wont be so bad”
Took this video this morning in my backyard.
I love being out there with the dogs.
I like listening to the sounds the water makes.
and I like to watch the dogs explore and take everything in.
As temping as it is to get on my phone, look at emails or take pics,
They teach me to do the same, to observe, listen, smell and be silent in nature.